All of the stuff I talked about before seemed to have stopped for a few months

Now it's back to hearing and seeing things all over again

Whatever entity that wants me to masturbate messed up this entire situation for itself. Should have helped.

And I'm not going to be scared back into doing it.

Maybe making things seem good for awhile may help you out. But I'm not letting fear drive my actions for worse results.

You lose for now.
Or...I'm just tripping. Who knows.

Anywho, I've already given up...any freedom or my being to anyone that was up for grabs awhile ago.

At least, I said I do. If so's the case then I'm already doomed.

Such being said. I may as well start drinking water, drinking soda, eating candy and do things that regular people do.

The funny part is, as soon as things get good...because of the things that I've said and am going to do, they'll probably get worse right after.

Life is great.

Does life end after you accept your fate?

Whoever is out there is patiently waiting.
I've got a hell of a ride ahead of me.

I still have something I have to do though.
And plans for that are looking...shaky.

Guess ill just have to see what happens.


I really feel as if I'm losing it. But I'm going to keep telling myself that I'm not until I believe it.