Depression.

Everyone goes through it, at least once in their life.

That's normal.

The problem is when you can't get passed it.

And you never will, until you find your own happiness.
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For about 3 or 4 years (I'm not even sure of it right now)

I was in my depression stage.

Of course the usual...not feeling like doing shit...contemplating suicide...etc...

Wasn't taking showers that often...being an ass...etc.

I'm not even sure why I was that way back then now that I think about it...

But, my sister moved back in with me and I couldn't stay mad for anything.

As if all i needed was someone to talk to, or keep me happy.

Too much time alone leads to over-thinking, but that doesn't mean it's always a bad thing.

But then again, too much of anything is bad.

It's just at some point in your life, you have to stop asking other people for guidance and advice

And take matters into your own hands.

Only you know what will make you feel better. No one can tell you any different.

I never received any advice. Unless you consider "Ayo chill" to be advice.

But when i see a more popular person going through that kind of shit

I saw all sorts of stuff...people begging the person to call them...what can they do for them...etc.

It was then i realized, and felt as if in the end, no one cares until you're dead.

The ones who have the least amount to say

Are the ones more likely to actually do it.

They don't feel the insecurity of it not happening.

So their confidence stays silent because they know what it is.

With no need to convince someone else of it.
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I'm not used to being attached to anyone

So when people do try to get close to me, defenses go up.

Believe i said this before. But i can't stress it enough.

Makes me want to go back and apologize to some people.

But some things are better off not said.

And regrets aren't worth my lifespan.
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By the way, check out my bros new song

"The Fall"- By Graphik.