Happiness

Back In school, I never thought I'd miss it. Never went to homecomings, proms...sports games...

Didn't even attend graduation. You'd think I'd regret it now.

At least I could form a good bond between the "cool" side and the "nerdy" side

We all know the black guy who acts "white"

As If acting ignorant = acting black and acting educated = acting white. Shame.

I really didn't care for most of the people there, hence my anti-social persona aka, looking as if I don't want anyone to talk to me. Can I really take blame for how my face looks?

Anyway, I'm glad it ended when I did...Was starting to smoke, seeing psychologists/psychiatrists for fear of schizophrenia/psychotic disorders. Who knows what was next.

Cutting off people who possibly cared for me out of pure...I don't even know anymore.

After spending a lot of time alone, you kind of get used to it. You want people to talk to, yet there has to be a limit upon it, along with the selfish demeanor. Which makes me not good at keeping "friends" whatsoever...

Maybe I don't want to be loved.

I'm sure the feeling is mutual, associates. Trusting is something I have had a problem with for a while...

Even to the point of telling my own "parents" that I don't trust them was a feat, I hope they didn't take it personal.

Society is not what you think it is, I promise you that. Even when you think you've got it figured out, you don't

Don't be afraid of saying you don't know, just cope with it, and research. Don't stress yourself out.

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Happiness is what you want it to be.

I just can't respect It if your happiness, was decided upon what people told you will bring you happiness.

You were told what you want before you even know what it was, and your material wishes that you long for end up owning you. Your car, money, house, etc...

Fight Club.

Don't ever let someone tell you how to live your life as long as you're happy doing what you do.

No matter how corny that sounds. You know it's true.

Home plate.